So many things have happened in the last year. Im not even sure where to begin. I've been in a car accident - totalled the car but walked away uninjured. My brother in law passed away. Bankruptcy was finalized. House went into forclosure. Old relationships split apart, new relationships formed. And so many other things I cant get into here.

But it seems that out of some of these things, in the midst of heartbreak and sorrow, a healing is also happening. I am no longer afraid of the many things I once was afraid of. Ive rode a motorcycle, learned to shoot a gun, went on a vacation with friends. I have left my comfort zone, and I dont think I'll be going back anytime soon.

Right now, I'm taking the last class I need to get my substitute teachers license. I will soon be out on my own with my children. Yes I am scared. I know it will be a hard road to walk, but it will be ok.

New Sewing Projects

So....I went to Joann Fabrics and bought some fabric. Too much fabric (wait a minute, you cant have too much) Anyway I now have a list of projects I need to get done

• Sewing aprons for dd and myself
• Pajama pants for dh and ds
• Ribbon blanket and burp cloths for a friends new baby
• Skirts and tops for dd and myself
• Superhero cape for ds

I also need to knit a baby hat.

I will post pics of my projects as I start them!

Sewing a Apron

This is the very first thing I have sewed following a pattern. Everything before this was just squares put together. This apron was made for a friend through a apron swap.

The Different fabrics

Cutting it out

The main piece sewed together

Ok, then I got excited and kept sewing and didnt take any pics till I had the pockets done and sewed onto the apron

The Finished Apron

Close up of pocket and top

Thanks for looking!

I am blessed by God

Its been awhile.....a long while, almost a year. And what a interesting year it has been. We have had many, many blessing this past year and I can see the Lords hand in it all. We've also had some financial difficulty that I thought was behind us. Well, its still here. Were trying to figure where God wants us in the big ol' world. Im trying to stop being such a control freak and let my husband take the lead.

Honestly though for some reason Im afraid that when he does lead it will cost me the most. It will cost me my (false) sense of security and my comfort zone. Probably some material comforts and possessions as well. But ya know what? I have a beautiful healthy family, and nothing else should really matter. In the big scope of life our houses, cars and possessions dont matter, just people. And my kids will be happy no matter where we are.

I have watched a number of ladies that I am blessed enough to call friends go through heart breaking losses of thier children. That really puts things in perspective. I have all my children here with me. Its time to stop sweating the small stuff. I am blessed

In this new year I am going to stop sweating the small stuff. And everything is small stuff.

Favorite Recipe!

Hawaiian Wedding Cake

1) 2 cups flour
2) 2 cups sugar
3) 2 tsp baking soda
4) 2 eggs

1 large can crushed pineapple
¾ cup walnut pieces
1 ½ cups flaked coconut

Mix first 4 ingredients, add pineapple (including juice) coconut and nuts. Pour into 9x13 greased and floured pan. Bake at 350º for 40-45 minutes. Cake should be golden to dark brown.

Frosting

1 stick margarine
1 large package cream cheese
1 tsp vanilla
2 cups confectioners sugar

Cream margarine and cream cheese together until creamy-no bumps- add vanilla. Gradually add sugar slowly. Frost cake when completely cooled

*Melt butter and cream cheese in microwave for 55 seconds before mixing with other ingredients.

Cake must be Refrigerated

Try it out and let me know what you all think

Asilomar

I am going on vacation! Well on a womens retreat with my church actually, to Asilomar, its near Monterey on the California coast. 4 days 3 nights by myself. Now most moms I know would be thrilled to have all that time alone. Not me. I will miss my babies terribly. I even miss them if Im gone for a couple hours. Heres a pic of the beach -------->>

They'll be home having fun with daddy, doing all those things they cant do when mommy is around like have a wrestle mania contest in the livingroom and such. I get so nervous when I leave them all alone. I shouldnt though. I know God has them in his hands and he loves them more than I do, even though it seems impossible at times because I love them so much.

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